Friday, June 16, 2006

Motivation Issues


I got this very cute card from Jessie today. I don't know how she made this so well, but it's perfectly made and mighty cute. She sent me her Macey's punch card too (for film developing), that's so nice. Thanks Jessie! I can't believe tomorrow is the Lola's Legacy scrapbook day already, I'll be there.

I don't know what's going on with me, but I'm not using my time wisely and not focusing well. I feel extremely inclined to nap (definitely felt this while driving today), and am not preparing for camp the way I should be. I have always admired people who know what they need to do, and then just do it. I'm usually scrambling at the last minute and feel frenzied and flustered. You'd think after repeating this cycle so many thousands of times in my life that I'd change my ways, but it's not looking like that's going to happen. Dr. Phil would say that I'm getting some sort of payoff for behaving this way...hmmm, perhaps I am. Maybe I like the feel of the looming deadline that forces me to do everything I need to do instead of lolly gagging around. I don't like the feel of staying up really late the night before a trip or a big event, yet that seems to be what I do.
So today Amie and I had planned to take our kids to Seven Peaks even though the weather is much cooler than normal. We were set to go, but talked on the phone this morning and decided we were freezing and that it wasn't a good day to go. The kids were crushed, but could kind of understand the cold factor. I thought we'd made peace with the situation, but Whitney must have been late to register the news because she just burst into tears after confirming the info with me (Landon must have updated her). So I decided that we'd pack our suits and towels and go there because we had to get our pictures taken for our season passes anyway and today wouldn't be crowded in the office because of the weather. We agreed to just go there to get our passes, then go to the dollar movies to see Ice Age 2. Of course, once we got there and saw all the people playing in the water Whitney was full-steam ahead with her skilled negotiator persona. She convinced me and Landon to give up the movie and to play in the water until we were too cold to take it any more. (That didn't take long for me.)

We went in the lazy river 3 times, then Landon went down the slides while Whitney and I stayed in the kiddie pool. I was fricken freezing and just sat against the side while she played. I kept looking at all the cute, smart moms who were all decked out for the day sitting on the side of the pool just watching their kids. I had actually put on make-up and everything today after Amie and I had decided not to go swimming, so it was rough to be sitting in a pool of cool water with the wind blowing and me soaking wet. Not good.

When Landon came back we all got out and went to dry off. I was sooo ready to go, but Whitney was campaigning for more lazy river time. Landon took her one more time (I love it that they're tall enough to go alone) while I got us some fries (we also didn't bring food and hadn't eaten yet). We sat in the sun eating our fries and were happy for a bit. The sun felt good and the fries were oh so tasty. I just couldn't believe how cold it was. All the tiny kids in the water were smiling through chattering teeth.

So long story short--that's all we've done today and now I'm wasted. Apparently I can't make good choices. I need to go grocery shopping, pick up a few more camp-related items, finish the gratitude journals, pack, get Father's Day stuff ready, and write about 100 thank you notes. Aargh, what's wrong with me?

**Are you a last-minute type of girl or do you
plan everything out and then wonder why
everyone else is crazy all the time?**

14 comments:

michelle said...

I love that card and am again wondering how Jessie manages to constantly come up with new ideas, while I always recycle my old tired ones. Dang.

I can't believe you went to 7Peaks today, It's not hot enough for that! What a trooper.

I seem to be a last-minute kind of gal, too. I always think I'm planning ahead, but then something else always seems to take priority. So I do whatever most needs to be done on a given day, and that usually leaves me scrambling. I agree, you'd think I'd have a better system worked out by now. What is the payoff here?

Jana said...

Well...I have a million "to do lists", but I definitely work better under pressure. My problem this summer, like your today, is that I really want my kids to have a fun summer, so I tend to cater to them and not do what I need to do.

jenn said...

so totally a last minute kind of girl!!

now do you need some help?

Amie said...

You went without me?????

becca said...

I can't leave things until the last minute, if I do I spend my time stressing out. I can't sleep if I know I have things to do and the deadline is comming. I don't think I ever stayed up late even one night in highschool to finish an assignment or study! (And as far as staying up to pack for a trip...my bags would be packed and waiting by the door in the evening so I could get to bed early!, yes, a little freakish!) Don't for a minute think that this way is better! It only means that I am a stress queen who doesn't do well under pressure, or handle big situations!

Anonymous said...

What a great mom you are Jill! Freezin' your tail off in a swimsuit for your kiddos is a complete gift of love.

Robyn said...

I used to be more organized and plan ahead but sometime during my college years I lost it. I started going out to have fun instead of doing what I should then I would stay up until 3 am to finish papers and assignments. Apparently this approach has stayed with me because I often find myself running around at the last minute stressing out. Like if I have a party I will convince myself it's ok to go to the store in the morning and make the dessert or whatever before it starts at 10 am (like I did on Thursday when I had a candle party). Inevitably, one of the kids freaks out and I don't have time to do it or the dessert doesn't set or cook right and it's a disaster. What payoff am I getting? No idea. I wish I would learn my lesson.

Can't believe you froze at 7 Peaks. Nothing is more miserable than being wet and cold, in my opinion. Glad that Whitney had fun! I miss 7 Peaks.

As for the subject of Jessie's creativity, I can't even address it due to the extreme nature of my jealousy.

amy gretchen said...

I think i work best at the last minute. I much prefer to be prepared and be ahead of the game, but it never happens that way. It doesn't matter how early i start I am always rushing to meet a deadline.

Amy said...

Well, isn't Whitney the little manipulator! I hate when I have a ton to do and things get in the way. It's especially hard when the thing that gets in the way is Kaitlin. I really want her to have a fun time and build good memories with her. At the same time there are other obligations that need to be fulfilled. Oh the guilt that comes with being a mother!

I also know what you mean about lack of motiviation. Are you making lists? I think we would all agree that this helps with the motivation issues. But then, if you're unmotivated to even make a list, where does that leave you? I'm sorry that I have no sage words of wisdom to offer. I can only empathise. I know exaclty where you're at.

Julie said...

I can't believe you went to 7 peaks after all that, but I must say this is the kind of day I like going to that place. I can't take the heat of summer so I never go there.
I am very last minute with a lot of things, but there are some things I do plan in advance.
And can I just say, Oh!, to be creative.

Anonymous said...

Last minute, here! For instance, I have a couple of BIG Stake activities I'm in charge of this summer (I'm our Stake's Cultural Arts Specialist) and every time I sit down to start compiling notes, flyers, etc. on the computer, I end up checking blogs instead.....

Alison said...

Nick and his family pack the car 24-48 hours in advance when they go on trips.
I'm the girl who always forgets to pack underwear.
I think that about sums it up.

Laurie said...

I'm a combination person. I spend a lot of time planning and organizing mentally and save the actual doing til the end a lot, but I almost never miss an important deadline.

Anonymous said...

That is a way cute card.

I always pack last minute and travel with usually just a few hours of sleep, but I generally prepare in advance for things, but I do sometimes procrastinate, I guess I'm not really sure what I do.